my decision to let go, not care and someday leave without any regard for anyone else’s feelings than my own is simple now.  I’ve never had the support I deserve but I always thought that I could change that with simple, beautiful honesty.  Apparently, there is an even simpler way of gaining said support which includes the alteration of everything I am.  It’s scary to know that below me there’s no net to fall back on, but I do know that despite my shortcomings, I was right from the get-go and that I could never be as blind and ugly as you’ve showed me you’ve the capability of being.  And now, the sudden emergence of honesty will change little about the way I carry myself in this personal environment…impersonally.  I am prepared to remove myself further from your surroundings and your business…because this is now only strictly business and now only for the support that I currently cannot provide for myself.  This shouldn’t be difficult to comprehend, as I was ignored and I was treated coldly yesterday for what I thought were my unfortunate shortcomings and behaviors, but rather for the shirt I had on my back suggesting I was everything you didn’t want me to be.  I couldn’t be more content with being everything you never wanted me to be.